Fast forward ... 2023

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Dearest N, 

Hello its been a while since i posted something here in my blog. However I just wanted to update my blog so yea Im here again. Anyways, I prayed for 2023. I really did. I remember it's my bio on my twitter account. BUt actually 2022 was the happiest year so far. Gotta spend my time with family members who are overseas. I witnessed the marriage of my favorite person. We got a new family pictures. I thought 2023 is going to be my year. because 23 is my favorite numbere haha no significance but yea. Besides we started the year, blissfully. 

Inspite of that, during the 21st of January ( feasibilty study's final defense) my dad passed away. I have accepetd that my dad won't is gatting old and he's been fighting for 5 years already but i never anticipated this day will come running. Before he died, he knew that he was running out of time. And gladly we have showered our love and we spoiled him already. I know he wanted to stay but it was his body who gave up. I accepted the situation but of course as a daddy's girl it'll never gonna be easy. I cry silently in the dark wishing he could hug me. Praying to God to heal my broken heart. Whenever I watch movies with wedding scene I cried asf because I felt envious because I will never experience walking down the aisle with him, actually i have this thought of not getting married but i dont want to affirm it. 

As of the moment, Im busy with my life. I had to keep going because that's what I promised to him I'll finish this degree no matter what happen. I miss him from time to time but bravely face the soming days. And graduation is approaching already. Manifestinggg 

Hope you guys are okay. 


N❤️


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